( Drawing attention to the mark on her skin is a bit cruel β especially in the middle of a small council meeting β but there is something satisfying about the way he squirms in her peripheral and that little prideful smile that makes the teasing worthwhile. He isn't alone in her thoughts; she also thinks about him leaving small reminders on the map of her skin. And she would prefer places easier to hide, but she can always make do with wearing a modest dress, even if it seems out of place in the summer heat.
Alicent easily falls back into the flow of conversation, offering reassurances where it is needed, proposing solutions and other options where they are needed, and not afraid to voice her disapproval of anything. It doesn't take long for the conversation to become detailed once more, and following the Hand's lead, she brings the conversation in from the tangent, which threatens to derail the meeting once more. )
My lords, ( voice firm and commanding enough that the chatter quiets down. ) The hour has grown late, and I do not wish to keep any of you here longer, but Prince Aemond wishes to address the council.
( She hopes they will give him the attention he deserves and needs. Unlike Aegon, who spends his time within this chamber drinking and not paying attention to what is being said as he waits for the moment he can leave, Aemond has an interest in the workings of the small council and would have likely paid more attention if she hadn't been a distraction.
With attention now on the young prince, Alicent motions for him to reign in the meeting. )
[ The other concerns of the day provided to be much more interesting. Drawing Aemond's focus as his mother delegates the room. Watching the way she works with the Hand, quelling disagreements before they can burn into fires. Generally, though it can be easily seen how well respected she is. How the seat she takes at this table instills a confidence within her.
As the attention turns on him, Aemond's back straightens as the rest of the rable turns their eyes on him. His hands set neatly at the end of the table, hands clasped. ]
In regards to her Grace's visit to Oldtown, and I as her escort. It is my request that I take my dragon for the moon's journey. [ He begins and gives pause for that request to sink in. His eye flicking between the Hand and the others sat at the table. ]
I understand that this is no easy cost to the Crown, however I do not think it should be any issue. King Jaehaerys and Queen Alysanne made several tours on dragon-back. Houses big and small not only would have been excited to see a dragon but have the honor of feeding one from their stock as well. I have spoken with the dragonkeepers who recommend a bull or four goats every day or two should suffice. So long as we do not overextend our stay, it should not be any burden to the houses who could host us or of great cost to the smaller ones who would need recompense for their reduced stock.
( Leaning back in the chair, Alicent watches and listens in silence. The instinct within her tells her to chime in, to give him support, and demand the lords see reason, but she understands a man's pride. She need remind herself that he isn't the innocent young boy that desperately needs her; he is a man grown and will want to do things on his own without his mother's involvement.
It is hard to let go and not smother him with her desire to help, but she knows that giving him this and allowing him to feel like a man will be rewarding in the end.
In the silence, as the lords listen to the request of the young prince, the gears in their heads begin to turn β especially those of the Master of coin, Lord Beesbury. Despite his old age, he is quick to calculate the cost of feeding the dragon will cost the crown as some will demand recompense. )
It will be costly ( he begins, )but it is as the young prince says, many houses along the Rose Road will be honored to not only serve the crown but find honor in feeding a dragon.
( The other lords nod, all concurring. )
It would be wise to petition the houses beforehand, ( Lord Tyland chimes in. ) Give them time to survey their stock and make preparations.
[ She would be right, he doesn't need her to step in. It would pull favor of her, but he seeks victory on his own. Otherwise, it would have just been left to her to deal with in his absence. As the lords seem to mill over and deliberate, he waits for someone to try to poke a hole in his reasoning. Ready to counter whatever objection that may lay waiting, but Lord Beesbury's answer comes amicable. As well as Tyland's.
Without even knowing it, the tension slacks slightly in the young prince's shoulders. His gaze levels at the table with a dutiful nod. ]
I will prepare the ravens myself. [ Aemond concludes, leaving no chance for this to escape his oversight.
The table, appeased with the issue, concludes with a bit of rumbling. Those eager to move along with their day easily excuse themselves. Lord Beesbury among the last, as being not a particularly agile fellow. Aemond remains, meeting the Hand's eye across the table who gently voices his approval of Aemond's handling of things as he too readies to depart. Out of ear of any departing lords that may appear too coddling. His lips only slightly curl, modest at most. Thanking him before he goes almost as if it might get him through the door faster.]
( She, too, waits for any of the lords to object to Aemond's proposal, but it doesn't come, leaving her shocked and impressed. More often than naught, most discussions within these chambers bring forth heated arguments. Either the lords are in a good mood and are pleased with the proposal brought on by the young prince, are afraid of the wrath that may come down upon them for disagreeing or throwing it out completely ( though that has never stopped them ), or they are eager to get on with their days.
Still, she is pleased with how things have been handled; between Aemond and the council members. Maybe she should allow him to attend more often β after all, he seems more interested than his brother, and if Aegon ever sits upon the throne, there is a chance Aemond could be a member of his council. But as things stand now, it is princess Rhaenyra that stands to inherit the throne, leaving uncertainties lingering for Alicent and her children.
As the council members depart, the Queen remains seated β nodding and bidding them all farewell. Her gaze lingers on each member, making sure to account for their departure, with the Hand being the last and Criston Cole behind him when she dismisses him, who is sure to close the door leaving the two of them alone. )
You conducted yourself well today, Aemond, ( she praises as she turns to face him. Never did she think otherwise, but rewarding to see all of his hard work, studying, and effort put toward something instead of sitting by idly. )
[ It's difficult imagining himself a fixture at this table without sitting where his mother sits, his father's seat. Becoming an adviser never truly struck an interest, but a king. A regent even. Though those were always treasonous fantasies. Where he and his mother know that the throne is promised to another and likely he to not stand in this chamber at all when the time comes. Even more lingers underneath the what if among what ifs that still whisper under lord's breaths when their father finally takes his last breath.
He often tries to wash his mind of such things. Then again, Aemond has proven rather treasonous lately in the company of his mother. Of which he holds back as he looks over at her with a gentle nod, shifting back into his chair to relax as he had before.]
Thank you for allowing me to attend.
[ It feels fake, like a play they have to put on between them. Even now in a closed and empty chamber. Pretending to just be a mother and a son. But when he looks at her, it's impossible not to see the rest of it. Nor is it to try and not speak on it.
He wets his lips and composes his gaze back at the table before drawing back to her. ] I think if there would have been more protest, they probably would have balked at how simple it would be to just fly you to Oldtown.
It would be good to have you in more of them; I think, ( her words hold truth, not just spoken to stroke his ego or placate his desires. Whenever Aegon attends these meetings, he looks like a caged animal, ready to escape where Aemond looks like he belongs. )
Would you enjoy attention more? I could suggest it to your grandsire and the other council members if it pleases you.
( A brow raises when he mentions flying her to Oldtown. The idea sends a shiver of anxiety through her. She might not feel this way if she had taken any interest in flying and accompanying Rhaenyra or her children when around their dragons. Still, the idea frightens her, but he does have a point β it would be easier and faster. )
How long would such a journey take on dragon back?
( There is some curiosity in her voice as she meets his gaze, her features having shifted softer, away from the cold and stony exterior she presented to the council.
She shifts to stand, moving around the corner of the table to stand beside him, leaning ( almost sitting ) on the table's edge as she reaches out, letting her fingers softly graze over his cheek and down the sharp angle of his jaw. For a moment, her touch lingers before letting her hand rest on her lap. It is impossible not to touch or reach out to him; it is all she wanted to do for the whole meeting, and she couldn't wait for the others to leave so she could be alone with him.
And because of her thoughts and desires and inability to not want him, she almost fears she comes across as too desperate and lonely and clingy. )
[ The touch is wanted, it's not that it isn't. So would be the idea of attending more of these meetings, as laborious as they might get. Only that he already dedicates a lot of his time to his studies, his training, it already feels as though little else has time for him. Even just these couple of days wrapped up in her attention chips away at the time left in his day. Though mayhaps he simply just hasn't been adjusted to it yet. Today feels an outlier, but it didn't come without sacrifices.
It's natural of him to soften to her touch, head tilted slightly as it pulls away almost as quickly as it lingered. His eye remaining on her as if trying to gauge how interested she really might be in such an idea.]
Three days if pressed. Four if flying comfortably. [ A pause to gauge her reaction ]
The Conciliator and the Good Queen made the journey once. Stopping in Bitterbridge and Highgarden. Would not be unreasonable to stop in Brightwater or Horn Hill if they had a day to spare, I imagine.
[ How would she handle that? Flying for hours on end. There was under no circumstance she would allow it. The queen and a prince left largely unguarded. Vhagar was a mighty beast capable of making any reasonable man to think twice, but it was risky. He still liked the idea, if only for the autonomy. ] As simple it would be, it would be unreasonable to transport a Queen who is not accustomed to such things.
( Once, she would have been repulsed by such an idea, but it settles on her differently now as she entertains it. Bottom lip jutting out slightly as they pull down slightly in thought. Three days if pressed and four if flying comfortably.
It is appealing, and she would be a liar to say otherwise. Such a trip would save the crown money in the end. The journey to and from would take eight days, leaving more time for them to spend in Oldtown or anywhere along the way versus the two moons long trip it would have taken by carriage.
Her hands shift from her lap, palms pressed against the table, and fingers curling under the edge. Her shoulders back, chest pushed out, and rises with each breath.
The only downfall ( if she dares even to call it that ) is that they would be alone, without anyone to guard them. While she knows he is skilled with a sword and Vhagar is a deterrent in and of herself, there are still those who would be foolish to attempt something if they know the queen and the young prince are traveling alone β it would be a handsome ransom. It is risky, perhaps too risky.
She cannot remember the last time she went anywhere without the royal guard, and yet she can't stop herself from reveling in the thought of being utterly alone with him. )
While I am not as skilled or knowledgeable as you and your sibling are regarding dragons, I know your saddle is made for one. This means, whether for the trip to Oldtown or flying with you regularly, I would either need to sit in your lap, or you'd be pressed against the pommel with me behind you.
There is also the matter of my lack of proper riding β flying attire and being unaccustomed, as you said.
[ He is staring respectfully, but must she sit like that? Aemond's index finger digs at the groove in the armrest of his chair. Still listening as she rebuffs the idea in her own words. Would appear as attentive as ever, though his attention threatens to divest him elsewhere.
It's not that small of a saddle, he would argue. She could fit it. For long durations, he hadn't thought about it in too much a detail. Nor would he seem to mind the thought of being pressed up against her for such a time. Though those thoughts are too strangled in his mind. It was a laborious idea, which is why he only meant to mention it to make a point among the lords. But one ride with her, at least. If not to Oldtown, perhaps somewhere closer.
Aemond's gaze falls and he swallows dry before speaking. ]
There is still time to accustom you. [ He notes as though it were a new suggestion. Playful, but so very subtle as though it got ahead of himself. He looks away briefly, chipping off a splinter of wood with his nail before flicking it away as he wets his lips. Recovering himself to speak more amicably. ]
We can still meet with her this afternoon, if you're not already engaged.
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( When was the last time he was so fervently insistent about something? She recalls how desperate he was for a dragon of his own, often sneaking into the depths of the Dragonpit with an inkling of hope only to be chased out with fear clinging to him. As terrified as she was for his safety and wellbeing, she never blamed him for wanting one of his own β to belong and be part of something, like his brother and nephews.
But after that β what held his interest so? Was there anything other than Vhagar and flying? There were his studies and training, but that all felt like it pales compared to his newfound desire to get her to ride with him.
She remains silent for a long moment, noting his voice's playfulness and how he idly picks at the chair. In an idleness of her own, Alicen't fingers drum against the underside of the table. )
This afternoon and evening are free of engagements, ( she finally says. ) I thought to relax in the baths at some point, but that can wait until we return.
( Playfully, she bumps her leg against his before beginning to push herself away from the table. ) Suppose I should ready myself. Shall we meet there or arrive together?
[ Aemond thinks she'll understand when she finally commits to it. In spite of his foolish honesty mumbled underneath her bedsheets, it is something he still wishes to share with her. An indescribable feeling that has latched to him since he was a small boy. She has indulged him in the idea this far. Knowing how fleeting her interests have been before, this time feels a bit different. His only wish is that she wasn't indulging him out of guilt or pity.
Her answer comes slow, but when it does Aemond's expression softens just so. As she moves, so does he. Brushing back his chair so that he may too rise to his feet.]
I don't mind waiting. [ He answers as he steps around his chair, hands smoothing and straightening his coat by it's bottom hem. Waiting beside to depart with her at last.
It's easier this way, nor is he in any particular rush to make it to the Dragonpit on this day. The attendance of the council and the preparations beforehand have uprooted whatever normalcy there was. Unnatural as it is, he doesn't seem to mind it. Nor would the prospect of more time spent together, as strange as it already were.]
( None of what she does is out of guilt or pity, even if she suffers from pangs of those emotions β her wishful desire to be with him and share in what he enjoys drives her.
With him standing beside her, Alicent gently places her hand in the crook of his elbow, her fingers pressing into the fabric of his coat, sinking into the plush fabric. The thought of lingering here together dances in the forefront of her imagination, of him pressing her against the table, mouth hungry against hers, or even him sitting in the chair at the head of the table, kneeling between his legs, or sitting on his lap. But she does not allow the temptation to linger long, as they have plans to head to the Dragonpit, and with each passing second, they are losing light. )
If you are free and do not have business to attend, care to walk me to my chambers?
I will ready myself then meet you in the middle bailey, ( she starts, then looks up at him before adding, ) unless you wish to stay.
( There are a few places she knows she'll be able to find suitable riding ware, as she owns none. Preferably she would like to start the abandoned apartments of the princess as she likely left things behind for the rare occasion she visits before asking Helaena or Talya for assistance. )
[ An innocent touch, wracked with temptations. Without knowing, her thoughts had mirrored his own as he struggled to remain composed throughout their meeting. Makes no obvious protest to escorting her this way, it's as if they've always done. If there were anything pertinent in his day, it wasn't pressing enough for him to deny her the escort.
Aemond's hand pauses at the door to meet her look as she implies him to stay while she gets ready. Wavering on a thought most imprudent as he thinks of the way she'd looked as she shed her gown. A thought that is quickly brushed away.]
I don't mind. Though β [ He pauses, as though trying to filter through the right words. Trying to find something genteel among sullied ones. ] I am not sure that we may ever leave. If I stay.
[ Just a thought. Is that a good or bad thing either way? His tone implies nothing. It's not as though they don't have any other day to go.
A pause before Aemond resumes pulling the door open. Though no eyes are on them, nothing out of the ordinary in the way that a son may be escorting his mother, the prince's back straightens just slightly. Thrust back under the risk of eyes and ears as they step out into the hall. Though the presence scant in the corridor, the familiar buzzing of knights, lords, and servants echo up from the serpentine steps.]
There is truth to your words, ( she concedes with a soft laugh to her words upon coming to the same realization. ) You shall leave me at the door, then, as I would hate to push this off to another day.
( Unlike how she acted when he was younger, her interest in meeting Vhagar and possibly flying with him will not wane, but she feels the sooner it happens, the better. To prepare herself if they fly to Oldtown or because she wishes to do more with him than slink around in the cover of night or whatever privacy they might find.
As the doors open, Alicent stands straighter as well. Happily smiling, nodding, and greeting those who pass as they make their way from the small council chamber to her apartments in Maegor's Holdfast.
This deep in the palace, they have more privacy than the halls or areas they walked, but with it still being day ( and even at night ), there is a chance that someone may overhear them. After a quick survey of the hall, Alicent leans in, looking up at him as her hand tightens on his arm. )
If you do not wish to stay, I will need no more than an hour to ready, and I will meet you at the carriage.
[ Similarly, Aemond makes a subtle survey as they cross from hall to hall. Less milling about these corridors but for the occasional servant or stationed guard. Quiet but for the echoes of their footsteps. As innocuous as a question it sounds, he would not have deemed it odd to relax in her antechamber for a time before engagements. Though he's not waiting for dinner and it is up to question if either of them can be trusted with their time along again.
He is better than this. He can wait. He can be abstinent. He can go long periods of time without thinking about trying to crush his mouth against hers against every available hard surface. Or wishing away his free will to allow her to simply command him through those doors instead. He can't let it consume him.
Carefully, Aemond's hand lifts to gather his mother's out from over the clasp along his arm. Peeling it away carefully, his thumb grazing along the tops of her fingers as he removes himself. Dismissing himself with a nod as he speaks. ]
I shall see you upon the hour, mother. [ There it is again, that little affection in his tone. If she had any doubt that he does wish to stay, it hides within the curls of his smile as he steps away. The encroaching footsteps echoing down the hall is what turns him away at last, his hands tucking themselves behind his back as he departs. Similarly to return to his own chambers to change and await for her as they had planned.]
( Returning the nod, Alicent enters her chambers despite the desperate urge to linger in the hall to watch him disappear around a corner. What little time she has is precious and will pass before she realizes it.
Sitting at her vanity, she begins combing through her hair and adds oils once she's done before braiding it over one shoulder ( with hopes that it will cover the mark he left on her neck should she be unable to find an outfit that will cover it ) and securing the end with a ribbon.
Satisfied with what she sees in the mirror, she pushes herself from her chair and is in the hall again, making her way to the abandoned apartments reserved for the princess and her family should they ever return. She pauses before the door, hand on the handle. There is an ache in her chest as she longs for the woman she once called friend, but she pushes those emotions aside and enters the chambers.
After closing the door, she immediately heads towards the trunks she knew the princess once used to store her riding gear. She expects it to be empty but is pleasantly surprised to find some still there. With haste, she begins pulling her dress off, the stays and shift beneath before pulling on the clothes she found in the trunk.
Unfortunately, the clothes within the drunk aren't the shades of green she typically wears, but she can settle for the blacks and reds of House Targaryen (the colors she once wore ). First, she pulls on the crimson shirt, then the black breeches that she tucks the shirt. Next comes the dark grey surcoat with dragon scales upon the shoulders, around the neck, and along the forearms, with silver fastenings along the chest and a belt around her waist. Grabbing the gloves from the box, she slips her shoes on, grabs her clothes, and heads back to her chambers, where she tosses her clothes over the back of a chair and pulls on her own black riding boots.
With one last glance in the mirror, Alicent heads down to the middle bailey. Head high as he descends the stairs, she tucks the gloves into her belt, ignoring the looks as if she isn't dressed for riding and is no longer clad in green.
Once in the bailey, she slips into the waiting carriage. )
[ Aemond is awaiting patiently among the pillows when it is time for his mother to join him. Only needing a far less measure of time to change into a leather jerkin and adjust his hair so that it lies more gathered over his shoulders. Riding gloves similarly tucked into his belt. With one foot kicked up onto the bench, he glances over from idle musing as the carriage door swings open.
Slowly, the prince's head turns to watch her as she sits. If not obviously lightly stunned to see her donning anything other than green. It's not as though he hasn't seen it before. With her hair braided it reminded him of old tapestries woven of her when she was a young queen. The shades of their house red and black blended to match with her copper hair.
It's very....unexpected of her. It's also very unexpected how much he likes seeing her in it. The prince smiles, fighting at the corners of his mouth as the door shuts as she settles. The carriage rocking into a gentle motion. He pulls his eyes off her a moment, composing himself with a dry swallow. ]
Is that my sisters? [He asks in both parts innocently curious and rakishly accusatory as he feigns his attention back out through the lattice.]
( She settles across from him, leaning into the pillows and meeting his gaze as the carriage lurches into motion. The expression on his face is to be expected; unlike his older siblings ( though far too young to even remember ), Aemond was born after she stopped wearing the colors of her husband's house the day of Rhaenyra's wedding and has solely worn the colors of her father's house since.
Feeling a flush of embarrassment ( from his gaze and feeling out of place in the clothes ) threatening to spread over her cheeks and neck, she looks away, fixing her gaze on a spot on the wall where the shadows of the city filter through the latticed window. )
Rhaenyra's. I did not wish to bother Helaena and the children. ( If she had more time to prepare, she would have had her own riding clothes made, but as all of this has been rather spontaneous, she has resorted to rummaging through old chests to find this. Her hands smooth over the leather breeches, happy they fit as she has remained as slender and graceful as before having children β this has made borrowing her former friend's and stepdaughter's clothes easier. )
Once we return, I should speak with Talya to have my own made.
[ Aemond's gaze keeps out the window, watching the city begin to pass. The view of her is naturally eclipsed by his blinded side. Only slightly needing to turn his chin in order to pull her back into his blurry periphery when she speaks. Planting the image of her rifling through Rhaenyra's dusty chambers.
What does turn his head completely is the idea of her getting her own made. He feels like she should have, at some point as a dragon's bride. Too bad Father never claimed another dragon. Would her riding habits be green, then? There is something about the red, but pushing her to keep it might be a touch too far for something. Either way, the court will whisper.]
You still have time to change your mind. [ Time to decide it's not for her.
It is a show of commitment, though. He will give her that. They had mostly spoken on only meeting Vhagar today, not riding her. Not that Aemond finds himself opposed to taking the she-dragon for a much needed flight(anything to get her away from the Dragonpit, she would fare better if she could nest naturally) or getting his mother to sit in the saddle. Now it seems like he can't refuse the opportunity to push her a bit farther. ]
( Unsure of how the day would unfold, Alicent wanted to be prepared for whatever may come. She could have continued wearing her dress to meet Vhagar, resigning herself to spectating as she once had when she was younger. What would that accomplish other than her being a bystander while others enjoy their interests and hobbies? Nothing because she would resign herself to the role she has taken for all these years. That isn't what she wants anymore; she wants to participate and be present, especially with him.
His words bring forth a thick silence between them as she mulls them over. Aemond, of all people, would never force her into something she did not wish to do β he may goad her and tease her, but once he realizes that she is against it, he won't push further.
The out he is giving her is appreciated, similar to the ones she has given him over the past few days, but it isn't one she needs. As apprehensive as she is to meet the she-dragon, she would have put her foot down if she was against it, stomping it from his mind.
This is something she wants to do. Perhaps even needs to do. )
My mind has been made, Aemond, ( she finally responds, voice smooth and even despite the occasional bumps of the carriage. ) I wish to do this with you.
( If it were any other, she might not have agreed β though she imagines few people might successfully convince her, neither of them is in any position to do so. )
[ It isn't so much doubt he feels in that long silence, only curiosity. Able to accept if she decides to decline, even if it would have been a disappointment to hear. It wouldn't have been unsurprising as one. The carriage is quiet as it rocks up the cobble hill. Aemond's lips twinge with a small smile in her response, diverting his attention elsewhere as though not to seem too triumphant.
Vhagar had outgrown the Dragonpit decades ago, diverting the carriage around the far side of the hill to where she often rested not too far beyond one of the pit's outer tunnels. Depositing them there under the more coarse landing of road where two dragonkeepers are waiting for them.
The sun is turning more golden by the hour as Aemond emerges. His eye wide and scanning the hill for the large, ancient wyrm still partially coiled under the afternoon sun. Having heard or anticipated his arrival, rises her head to look over at them with passing indifference. ]
She seems well rested. Let's hope that means she's in a good mood. [ Aemond notes as his attention splits back. Is he joking, isn't he joking. To be fair, it would seem impossible to tell.
He speaks as he steps back over to the opening of the carriage. Hand extended to help his mother down the stairs, most courteously, over the presence of the footman waiting to do the same.]
( Gods, she can't believe she's doing this β anyone who isn't Aemond must think she's lost her mind ( maybe even he might think she is on the verge of madness as she agreed to meet the great dragon instead of turning down the offer as she once would have ).
A tinge of fear tingles in her throat when he speaks of hoping that Vhagar is in a good mood. Alicent hopes he jests, trying to rile her up, but it is impossible to tell with the dry delivery.
You still have time to decline, she reminds herself, you can stay in the carriage while he β she stops herself from continuing that line of thinking, especially when she just told him she had made up her mind and that she wanted to do this with him.
Drawing in a deep breath, Alicent pushes herself from her seat and begins exiting the carriage, her eyes flickering between the two hands outstretched towards her, one belonging to Aemong and the other to the footman. Almost immediately, she takes Aemond's hand, curling her fingers around his as she takes the first step before placing her hand in the footman's, almost like an afterthought to allow him to help her as well. Only when she reaches the ground does she keep her hand in Aemond's and removes it from the other man's. )
Thank you, ( she says with a smile before turning her attention fully to her son, thumb smoothing over the back of his hand as she tries to keep her own from trembling from the fear and emotions that threaten to build. Taking a step towards him, eyes locked on his and her voice low so only he can hear, ) As always, I put my faith and trust in you, Aemond. I ask you to guild me and teach me as I give myself to you entirely.
[He says nothing at first as she draws closer, their hands dangling between them. She tries to still it, but he can feel her tremble. Hidden under the way she adjusts the clutch of her hand around his. Similarly he adjusts the twining of their fingers to more firmly secure hers.
Aemond is not sure he should be trusted so with something so wholly given. Not when it's presented, do his thoughts begin to plunge into temptations of depravity. A large burden of responsibility lain in his hands, now the responsibility of her wellness. Her fear is valid and palpable, but so is the tingling anticipation. The flare of adrenaline coursing through her veins. ]
Take a deep breath and stay by my side. [ Aemond instructs, soft and assured of the situation. She must have recalled all the times he returned from the pit with singed eyebrows. Approaching a dragon with it's rider is a score easier than trying to visit them alone. Vhagar is clever, almost human in her understanding. To him, there's nearly no risk to it at all.
A low rumble barrels out of Vhagar's chest, spitting plumes of smoke out of her nose as she settles with a sigh. Aemond steps aside, arm twisting along with hers as he begins to guide her away from the carriage. His head turning over one shoulder to bark the attention of the keepers. ]
DerΔbagon iΔ tΘ³ne mazilΔ«bagon hen belma. Γuha muΓ±a kipagon lΔda nyke tubΔ« [ Promptly, one of the dragonkeepers nods and hurries into the entry of the lower pits to fetch at his request. The other begins to amble along into the field with one of their staves, going no further ahead than them as Aemond slowly guides the both of them into the warm open clearing.]
( As distant and disinterested as she was when he was a child, learning about dragons alongside his brother and nephews, Alicent remembered every moment he returned to her from the Dragonpit smelling of dragon musk, dirty and often injured. More often than not, she feared that his boldness would get the better of him and he wouldn't return to her ( even if the worst he endured were singed eyebrows and a few minor scrapes ) β it seems that boldness is what got Aemond his dragon in the end.
Swallowing down the lump that has lodged itself in her throat and steeling her nerves with a deep breath, Alicent walks beside Aemond with her arm threaded through his.
Balerion, the Black Dread, had died long before Alicent ever married King Viserys, and with him never taking another dragon, she had no real reason to learn about dragons. What basics she did know were from her childhood with Rhaenyra and from what she gathered from her children as she listened to them in their excitement as they learned. She managed to pick up things here and there, basic words and commands in High Valryian, but nothing she ever thought would be useful or impressive. )
With how brazen you can be, I am impressed you take precautions while flying, ( she teases, having picked up on the word for chains. As they walk and talk, she hopes it will provide enough distraction to calm her already heightened nerves and ease the adrenaline surging through her veins that makes her want to flee. )
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Alicent easily falls back into the flow of conversation, offering reassurances where it is needed, proposing solutions and other options where they are needed, and not afraid to voice her disapproval of anything. It doesn't take long for the conversation to become detailed once more, and following the Hand's lead, she brings the conversation in from the tangent, which threatens to derail the meeting once more. )
My lords, ( voice firm and commanding enough that the chatter quiets down. ) The hour has grown late, and I do not wish to keep any of you here longer, but Prince Aemond wishes to address the council.
( She hopes they will give him the attention he deserves and needs. Unlike Aegon, who spends his time within this chamber drinking and not paying attention to what is being said as he waits for the moment he can leave, Aemond has an interest in the workings of the small council and would have likely paid more attention if she hadn't been a distraction.
With attention now on the young prince, Alicent motions for him to reign in the meeting. )
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As the attention turns on him, Aemond's back straightens as the rest of the rable turns their eyes on him. His hands set neatly at the end of the table, hands clasped. ]
In regards to her Grace's visit to Oldtown, and I as her escort. It is my request that I take my dragon for the moon's journey. [ He begins and gives pause for that request to sink in. His eye flicking between the Hand and the others sat at the table. ]
I understand that this is no easy cost to the Crown, however I do not think it should be any issue. King Jaehaerys and Queen Alysanne made several tours on dragon-back. Houses big and small not only would have been excited to see a dragon but have the honor of feeding one from their stock as well. I have spoken with the dragonkeepers who recommend a bull or four goats every day or two should suffice. So long as we do not overextend our stay, it should not be any burden to the houses who could host us or of great cost to the smaller ones who would need recompense for their reduced stock.
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It is hard to let go and not smother him with her desire to help, but she knows that giving him this and allowing him to feel like a man will be rewarding in the end.
In the silence, as the lords listen to the request of the young prince, the gears in their heads begin to turn β especially those of the Master of coin, Lord Beesbury. Despite his old age, he is quick to calculate the cost of feeding the dragon will cost the crown as some will demand recompense. )
It will be costly ( he begins, )but it is as the young prince says, many houses along the Rose Road will be honored to not only serve the crown but find honor in feeding a dragon.
( The other lords nod, all concurring. )
It would be wise to petition the houses beforehand, ( Lord Tyland chimes in. ) Give them time to survey their stock and make preparations.
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Without even knowing it, the tension slacks slightly in the young prince's shoulders. His gaze levels at the table with a dutiful nod. ]
I will prepare the ravens myself. [ Aemond concludes, leaving no chance for this to escape his oversight.
The table, appeased with the issue, concludes with a bit of rumbling. Those eager to move along with their day easily excuse themselves. Lord Beesbury among the last, as being not a particularly agile fellow. Aemond remains, meeting the Hand's eye across the table who gently voices his approval of Aemond's handling of things as he too readies to depart. Out of ear of any departing lords that may appear too coddling. His lips only slightly curl, modest at most. Thanking him before he goes almost as if it might get him through the door faster.]
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Still, she is pleased with how things have been handled; between Aemond and the council members. Maybe she should allow him to attend more often β after all, he seems more interested than his brother, and if Aegon ever sits upon the throne, there is a chance Aemond could be a member of his council. But as things stand now, it is princess Rhaenyra that stands to inherit the throne, leaving uncertainties lingering for Alicent and her children.
As the council members depart, the Queen remains seated β nodding and bidding them all farewell. Her gaze lingers on each member, making sure to account for their departure, with the Hand being the last and Criston Cole behind him when she dismisses him, who is sure to close the door leaving the two of them alone. )
You conducted yourself well today, Aemond, ( she praises as she turns to face him. Never did she think otherwise, but rewarding to see all of his hard work, studying, and effort put toward something instead of sitting by idly. )
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He often tries to wash his mind of such things. Then again, Aemond has proven rather treasonous lately in the company of his mother. Of which he holds back as he looks over at her with a gentle nod, shifting back into his chair to relax as he had before.]
Thank you for allowing me to attend.
[ It feels fake, like a play they have to put on between them. Even now in a closed and empty chamber. Pretending to just be a mother and a son. But when he looks at her, it's impossible not to see the rest of it. Nor is it to try and not speak on it.
He wets his lips and composes his gaze back at the table before drawing back to her. ] I think if there would have been more protest, they probably would have balked at how simple it would be to just fly you to Oldtown.
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Would you enjoy attention more? I could suggest it to your grandsire and the other council members if it pleases you.
( A brow raises when he mentions flying her to Oldtown. The idea sends a shiver of anxiety through her. She might not feel this way if she had taken any interest in flying and accompanying Rhaenyra or her children when around their dragons. Still, the idea frightens her, but he does have a point β it would be easier and faster. )
How long would such a journey take on dragon back?
( There is some curiosity in her voice as she meets his gaze, her features having shifted softer, away from the cold and stony exterior she presented to the council.
She shifts to stand, moving around the corner of the table to stand beside him, leaning ( almost sitting ) on the table's edge as she reaches out, letting her fingers softly graze over his cheek and down the sharp angle of his jaw. For a moment, her touch lingers before letting her hand rest on her lap. It is impossible not to touch or reach out to him; it is all she wanted to do for the whole meeting, and she couldn't wait for the others to leave so she could be alone with him.
And because of her thoughts and desires and inability to not want him, she almost fears she comes across as too desperate and lonely and clingy. )
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It's natural of him to soften to her touch, head tilted slightly as it pulls away almost as quickly as it lingered. His eye remaining on her as if trying to gauge how interested she really might be in such an idea.]
Three days if pressed. Four if flying comfortably. [ A pause to gauge her reaction ]
The Conciliator and the Good Queen made the journey once. Stopping in Bitterbridge and Highgarden. Would not be unreasonable to stop in Brightwater or Horn Hill if they had a day to spare, I imagine.
[ How would she handle that? Flying for hours on end. There was under no circumstance she would allow it. The queen and a prince left largely unguarded. Vhagar was a mighty beast capable of making any reasonable man to think twice, but it was risky. He still liked the idea, if only for the autonomy. ] As simple it would be, it would be unreasonable to transport a Queen who is not accustomed to such things.
[ Unless. ]
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It is appealing, and she would be a liar to say otherwise. Such a trip would save the crown money in the end. The journey to and from would take eight days, leaving more time for them to spend in Oldtown or anywhere along the way versus the two moons long trip it would have taken by carriage.
Her hands shift from her lap, palms pressed against the table, and fingers curling under the edge. Her shoulders back, chest pushed out, and rises with each breath.
The only downfall ( if she dares even to call it that ) is that they would be alone, without anyone to guard them. While she knows he is skilled with a sword and Vhagar is a deterrent in and of herself, there are still those who would be foolish to attempt something if they know the queen and the young prince are traveling alone β it would be a handsome ransom. It is risky, perhaps too risky.
She cannot remember the last time she went anywhere without the royal guard, and yet she can't stop herself from reveling in the thought of being utterly alone with him. )
While I am not as skilled or knowledgeable as you and your sibling are regarding dragons, I know your saddle is made for one. This means, whether for the trip to Oldtown or flying with you regularly, I would either need to sit in your lap, or you'd be pressed against the pommel with me behind you.
There is also the matter of my lack of proper riding β flying attire and being unaccustomed, as you said.
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It's not that small of a saddle, he would argue. She could fit it. For long durations, he hadn't thought about it in too much a detail. Nor would he seem to mind the thought of being pressed up against her for such a time. Though those thoughts are too strangled in his mind. It was a laborious idea, which is why he only meant to mention it to make a point among the lords. But one ride with her, at least. If not to Oldtown, perhaps somewhere closer.
Aemond's gaze falls and he swallows dry before speaking. ]
There is still time to accustom you. [ He notes as though it were a new suggestion. Playful, but so very subtle as though it got ahead of himself. He looks away briefly, chipping off a splinter of wood with his nail before flicking it away as he wets his lips. Recovering himself to speak more amicably. ]
We can still meet with her this afternoon, if you're not already engaged.
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But after that β what held his interest so? Was there anything other than Vhagar and flying? There were his studies and training, but that all felt like it pales compared to his newfound desire to get her to ride with him.
She remains silent for a long moment, noting his voice's playfulness and how he idly picks at the chair. In an idleness of her own, Alicen't fingers drum against the underside of the table. )
This afternoon and evening are free of engagements, ( she finally says. ) I thought to relax in the baths at some point, but that can wait until we return.
( Playfully, she bumps her leg against his before beginning to push herself away from the table. ) Suppose I should ready myself. Shall we meet there or arrive together?
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Her answer comes slow, but when it does Aemond's expression softens just so. As she moves, so does he. Brushing back his chair so that he may too rise to his feet.]
I don't mind waiting. [ He answers as he steps around his chair, hands smoothing and straightening his coat by it's bottom hem. Waiting beside to depart with her at last.
It's easier this way, nor is he in any particular rush to make it to the Dragonpit on this day. The attendance of the council and the preparations beforehand have uprooted whatever normalcy there was. Unnatural as it is, he doesn't seem to mind it. Nor would the prospect of more time spent together, as strange as it already were.]
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With him standing beside her, Alicent gently places her hand in the crook of his elbow, her fingers pressing into the fabric of his coat, sinking into the plush fabric. The thought of lingering here together dances in the forefront of her imagination, of him pressing her against the table, mouth hungry against hers, or even him sitting in the chair at the head of the table, kneeling between his legs, or sitting on his lap. But she does not allow the temptation to linger long, as they have plans to head to the Dragonpit, and with each passing second, they are losing light. )
If you are free and do not have business to attend, care to walk me to my chambers?
I will ready myself then meet you in the middle bailey, ( she starts, then looks up at him before adding, ) unless you wish to stay.
( There are a few places she knows she'll be able to find suitable riding ware, as she owns none. Preferably she would like to start the abandoned apartments of the princess as she likely left things behind for the rare occasion she visits before asking Helaena or Talya for assistance. )
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Aemond's hand pauses at the door to meet her look as she implies him to stay while she gets ready. Wavering on a thought most imprudent as he thinks of the way she'd looked as she shed her gown. A thought that is quickly brushed away.]
I don't mind. Though β [ He pauses, as though trying to filter through the right words. Trying to find something genteel among sullied ones. ] I am not sure that we may ever leave. If I stay.
[ Just a thought. Is that a good or bad thing either way? His tone implies nothing. It's not as though they don't have any other day to go.
A pause before Aemond resumes pulling the door open. Though no eyes are on them, nothing out of the ordinary in the way that a son may be escorting his mother, the prince's back straightens just slightly. Thrust back under the risk of eyes and ears as they step out into the hall. Though the presence scant in the corridor, the familiar buzzing of knights, lords, and servants echo up from the serpentine steps.]
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( Unlike how she acted when he was younger, her interest in meeting Vhagar and possibly flying with him will not wane, but she feels the sooner it happens, the better. To prepare herself if they fly to Oldtown or because she wishes to do more with him than slink around in the cover of night or whatever privacy they might find.
As the doors open, Alicent stands straighter as well. Happily smiling, nodding, and greeting those who pass as they make their way from the small council chamber to her apartments in Maegor's Holdfast.
This deep in the palace, they have more privacy than the halls or areas they walked, but with it still being day ( and even at night ), there is a chance that someone may overhear them. After a quick survey of the hall, Alicent leans in, looking up at him as her hand tightens on his arm. )
If you do not wish to stay, I will need no more than an hour to ready, and I will meet you at the carriage.
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He is better than this. He can wait. He can be abstinent. He can go long periods of time without thinking about trying to crush his mouth against hers against every available hard surface. Or wishing away his free will to allow her to simply command him through those doors instead. He can't let it consume him.
Carefully, Aemond's hand lifts to gather his mother's out from over the clasp along his arm. Peeling it away carefully, his thumb grazing along the tops of her fingers as he removes himself. Dismissing himself with a nod as he speaks. ]
I shall see you upon the hour, mother. [ There it is again, that little affection in his tone. If she had any doubt that he does wish to stay, it hides within the curls of his smile as he steps away. The encroaching footsteps echoing down the hall is what turns him away at last, his hands tucking themselves behind his back as he departs. Similarly to return to his own chambers to change and await for her as they had planned.]
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Sitting at her vanity, she begins combing through her hair and adds oils once she's done before braiding it over one shoulder ( with hopes that it will cover the mark he left on her neck should she be unable to find an outfit that will cover it ) and securing the end with a ribbon.
Satisfied with what she sees in the mirror, she pushes herself from her chair and is in the hall again, making her way to the abandoned apartments reserved for the princess and her family should they ever return. She pauses before the door, hand on the handle. There is an ache in her chest as she longs for the woman she once called friend, but she pushes those emotions aside and enters the chambers.
After closing the door, she immediately heads towards the trunks she knew the princess once used to store her riding gear. She expects it to be empty but is pleasantly surprised to find some still there. With haste, she begins pulling her dress off, the stays and shift beneath before pulling on the clothes she found in the trunk.
Unfortunately, the clothes within the drunk aren't the shades of green she typically wears, but she can settle for the blacks and reds of House Targaryen (the colors she once wore ). First, she pulls on the crimson shirt, then the black breeches that she tucks the shirt. Next comes the dark grey surcoat with dragon scales upon the shoulders, around the neck, and along the forearms, with silver fastenings along the chest and a belt around her waist. Grabbing the gloves from the box, she slips her shoes on, grabs her clothes, and heads back to her chambers, where she tosses her clothes over the back of a chair and pulls on her own black riding boots.
With one last glance in the mirror, Alicent heads down to the middle bailey. Head high as he descends the stairs, she tucks the gloves into her belt, ignoring the looks as if she isn't dressed for riding and is no longer clad in green.
Once in the bailey, she slips into the waiting carriage. )
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Slowly, the prince's head turns to watch her as she sits. If not obviously lightly stunned to see her donning anything other than green. It's not as though he hasn't seen it before. With her hair braided it reminded him of old tapestries woven of her when she was a young queen. The shades of their house red and black blended to match with her copper hair.
It's very....unexpected of her. It's also very unexpected how much he likes seeing her in it. The prince smiles, fighting at the corners of his mouth as the door shuts as she settles. The carriage rocking into a gentle motion. He pulls his eyes off her a moment, composing himself with a dry swallow. ]
Is that my sisters? [He asks in both parts innocently curious and rakishly accusatory as he feigns his attention back out through the lattice.]
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Feeling a flush of embarrassment ( from his gaze and feeling out of place in the clothes ) threatening to spread over her cheeks and neck, she looks away, fixing her gaze on a spot on the wall where the shadows of the city filter through the latticed window. )
Rhaenyra's. I did not wish to bother Helaena and the children. ( If she had more time to prepare, she would have had her own riding clothes made, but as all of this has been rather spontaneous, she has resorted to rummaging through old chests to find this. Her hands smooth over the leather breeches, happy they fit as she has remained as slender and graceful as before having children β this has made borrowing her former friend's and stepdaughter's clothes easier. )
Once we return, I should speak with Talya to have my own made.
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What does turn his head completely is the idea of her getting her own made. He feels like she should have, at some point as a dragon's bride. Too bad Father never claimed another dragon. Would her riding habits be green, then? There is something about the red, but pushing her to keep it might be a touch too far for something. Either way, the court will whisper.]
You still have time to change your mind. [ Time to decide it's not for her.
It is a show of commitment, though. He will give her that. They had mostly spoken on only meeting Vhagar today, not riding her. Not that Aemond finds himself opposed to taking the she-dragon for a much needed flight(anything to get her away from the Dragonpit, she would fare better if she could nest naturally) or getting his mother to sit in the saddle. Now it seems like he can't refuse the opportunity to push her a bit farther. ]
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His words bring forth a thick silence between them as she mulls them over. Aemond, of all people, would never force her into something she did not wish to do β he may goad her and tease her, but once he realizes that she is against it, he won't push further.
The out he is giving her is appreciated, similar to the ones she has given him over the past few days, but it isn't one she needs. As apprehensive as she is to meet the she-dragon, she would have put her foot down if she was against it, stomping it from his mind.
This is something she wants to do. Perhaps even needs to do. )
My mind has been made, Aemond, ( she finally responds, voice smooth and even despite the occasional bumps of the carriage. ) I wish to do this with you.
( If it were any other, she might not have agreed β though she imagines few people might successfully convince her, neither of them is in any position to do so. )
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Vhagar had outgrown the Dragonpit decades ago, diverting the carriage around the far side of the hill to where she often rested not too far beyond one of the pit's outer tunnels. Depositing them there under the more coarse landing of road where two dragonkeepers are waiting for them.
The sun is turning more golden by the hour as Aemond emerges. His eye wide and scanning the hill for the large, ancient wyrm still partially coiled under the afternoon sun. Having heard or anticipated his arrival, rises her head to look over at them with passing indifference. ]
She seems well rested. Let's hope that means she's in a good mood. [ Aemond notes as his attention splits back. Is he joking, isn't he joking. To be fair, it would seem impossible to tell.
He speaks as he steps back over to the opening of the carriage. Hand extended to help his mother down the stairs, most courteously, over the presence of the footman waiting to do the same.]
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A tinge of fear tingles in her throat when he speaks of hoping that Vhagar is in a good mood. Alicent hopes he jests, trying to rile her up, but it is impossible to tell with the dry delivery.
You still have time to decline, she reminds herself, you can stay in the carriage while he β she stops herself from continuing that line of thinking, especially when she just told him she had made up her mind and that she wanted to do this with him.
Drawing in a deep breath, Alicent pushes herself from her seat and begins exiting the carriage, her eyes flickering between the two hands outstretched towards her, one belonging to Aemong and the other to the footman. Almost immediately, she takes Aemond's hand, curling her fingers around his as she takes the first step before placing her hand in the footman's, almost like an afterthought to allow him to help her as well. Only when she reaches the ground does she keep her hand in Aemond's and removes it from the other man's. )
Thank you, ( she says with a smile before turning her attention fully to her son, thumb smoothing over the back of his hand as she tries to keep her own from trembling from the fear and emotions that threaten to build. Taking a step towards him, eyes locked on his and her voice low so only he can hear, ) As always, I put my faith and trust in you, Aemond. I ask you to guild me and teach me as I give myself to you entirely.
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Aemond is not sure he should be trusted so with something so wholly given. Not when it's presented, do his thoughts begin to plunge into temptations of depravity. A large burden of responsibility lain in his hands, now the responsibility of her wellness. Her fear is valid and palpable, but so is the tingling anticipation. The flare of adrenaline coursing through her veins. ]
Take a deep breath and stay by my side. [ Aemond instructs, soft and assured of the situation. She must have recalled all the times he returned from the pit with singed eyebrows. Approaching a dragon with it's rider is a score easier than trying to visit them alone. Vhagar is clever, almost human in her understanding. To him, there's nearly no risk to it at all.
A low rumble barrels out of Vhagar's chest, spitting plumes of smoke out of her nose as she settles with a sigh. Aemond steps aside, arm twisting along with hers as he begins to guide her away from the carriage. His head turning over one shoulder to bark the attention of the keepers. ]
DerΔbagon iΔ tΘ³ne mazilΔ«bagon hen belma. Γuha muΓ±a kipagon lΔda nyke tubΔ« [ Promptly, one of the dragonkeepers nods and hurries into the entry of the lower pits to fetch at his request. The other begins to amble along into the field with one of their staves, going no further ahead than them as Aemond slowly guides the both of them into the warm open clearing.]
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Swallowing down the lump that has lodged itself in her throat and steeling her nerves with a deep breath, Alicent walks beside Aemond with her arm threaded through his.
Balerion, the Black Dread, had died long before Alicent ever married King Viserys, and with him never taking another dragon, she had no real reason to learn about dragons. What basics she did know were from her childhood with Rhaenyra and from what she gathered from her children as she listened to them in their excitement as they learned. She managed to pick up things here and there, basic words and commands in High Valryian, but nothing she ever thought would be useful or impressive. )
With how brazen you can be, I am impressed you take precautions while flying, ( she teases, having picked up on the word for chains. As they walk and talk, she hopes it will provide enough distraction to calm her already heightened nerves and ease the adrenaline surging through her veins that makes her want to flee. )
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